04 Oct
If you’re all reading the news at all, you know what’s going on. To answer all messages and calls from dear friends referenced in the title of this post…I’m managing. This one feels like it’s going to last a while, what with the devolving of most serious political discourse into memes of dubious quality and […]
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15 Sep
I woke up with a weird sense of existential dread and anxiety this morning. I’m pretty sure it wasn’t just because it was Monday morning. The weekend was productive -I made a lot of progress toward meeting the deadlines for those creative projects I’m working on with other people- one’s not quite done, but I […]
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16 Jul
As one expects, ConGregate was a very nice experience. Going in, I was, as is ridiculously common in the current age, extra stressed and anxious for all kinds of reasons that any regular reader here (assuming there are any) can surely identify. But, since I’m somewhat of a professional at this, I put on the […]
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11 Jul
Slipping out quietly after close of business Tuesday night, the Supreme Court released it’s ruling on the pending litigation regarding the federal workforce EO. It came out about how I expected; there’s been no argument that the head of the executive branch, as outlined in Article II of the Constitution, doesn’t have the power to […]
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01 Jul
At noon today, we’ll have crossed over into the second half of 2025. The first half has been…a lot. The last five months, especially, have felt like five years. There’s just been too damned much of it. Go look at any of the retrospectives today (such as the opening paragraphs of this daily newsletter) for […]
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30 May
Short week and pretty decent long weekend (that provided a welcome distraction from other things) aside, I’m hitting a bit of a wall. I actually started the week with a relatively positive attitude. I was ready to hit this special project I’m working hard and wrap things up so I can get back to my […]
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13 May
This morning I woke up in a cold sweat, with my pulse racing and an existential feeling of dread and anxiety. The clock radio alarm, went it went off, was playing “Hot Blooded” from Foreigner, which, I guess, was oddly appropriate. Seems I was having an anxiety-induced panic attack, and wasn’t immediately aware of why. […]
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09 May
it’s not been a great week. The return-to-office mandate is still unpleasant, loud, and demoralizing, with too few bathrooms, a broken ice machine, and barely functioning network services. It adds a good hour to my “working” time given the commute, traffic on the interstate, lines at the badge check at the gate, and “differently functional” […]
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05 May
Given the recent news in federal circles regarding potential benefit cuts in the latest budget, as well as the whole < gestures vaguely at everything > in my particular vocation since the end of January, it’s depressingly ironic that this week is recognized as Public Service Recognition Week. Not that I’m really looking for recognition […]
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02 May
After more than five years of remote work, today I returned to the commuting office life. It was…fine. In the most general of terms, it’s not really *that* much of an inconvenience, though to be honest, it’s kind of a bummer, just because. I likely could have waited until Monday to come in, though I […]
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