13 Jul
Warning: Post Contains weird, stream-of-consciousness recounting of the dream experiences. It’s weird. Feel free to ignore. I just had to get it out. Due to a number of factors, including stress and anxiety on all manner of fronts, and the lack of my wife in my house and bed this weekend (She and the girls […]
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09 Jul
Thanks to more than one dear friend, this guided meditation from a brilliant guru named Jason Headley, floating serenely out there in the electronic aether, popped up in my various media feeds, and I am extremely grateful. While, as another friend says, “it’s not how Elizabeth* does it”, it certainly applies to the kind of […]
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24 Jun
I discovered a new word today; a good German word to describe a complex concept; the kind of word we just don’t have in English. It also does a pretty good job of describing a feeling I run into all too often these days… weltschmerz: 1: mental depression or apathy caused by comparison of the […]
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09 Jun
I don’t have any particularly profound things to share, but the space feels empty, and I have a few minutes. Oh look, it’s June. Life is life, really…moving along, slow and steady, generally not particularly noteworthy. Employment is employment: I’ve been at this particular chapter for five months and change now; it’s mostly paying the […]
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13 May
Greetings, all. I’m on my second week of business travel in a row, adding little of value to a project in “The Arch City”. I’ve gotten to meet some people I talk to on the phone all the time in person, but honestly, it’s not been that useful a week, all told. This happens. I […]
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30 Mar
F**K off, please. it’s been a tough couple of weeks. No particular thing to point to beyond life and chemical imbalances; it’s just hitting extra hard right now after my working so very hard to hold things together last week, which, on top of other stuff previously expressed, involved begging executive level management for a […]
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27 Mar
My current job, which, I think, maybe, on the whole, I’m going to eventually grow to like, possibly, once I truly come to terms with the fact that I don’t actually make anything anymore so much as enable other people to make thing, involves a lot of business-speak for something that’s nominally in the world […]
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20 Mar
As much as I hate to admit it, the subject of this post is what I find myself chanting to myself as I walk from the parking lot to the office door every morning these days. Things are a little rough around my office right now; first, because I’m still figuring out what the hell […]
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04 Mar
So today I made a decision. I am going back to my five day work schedule. I dislike this, because I loved my three day weekends. The problem is that as much as I hate adding Friday back to my schedule, worse was the feeling of resentment I would get whenever I had to give […]
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09 Feb
Let’s hope so. Things started settling down at the office by Thursday afternoon (in case you hadn’t figured it out, we had what you can euphemistically call an “IT emergency” involving a shift into round-the-clock crisis management mode and contingency planning for a couple of days). I managed to get my regular Friday off (after […]
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