Like I said earlier, this week’s been a rough one. Damned depression. I’m slowly coming out of it, though it’s really hard to feel anything like joy or contentment. I’m no longer despondent, but I’m pretty much numb. I had a few moments in ceili class on Thursday night that I felt maybe a bit normal, but they were fleeting.

As I say, though, don’t worry. I’ll pull through, I always do. I appreciate the good thoughts and understanding from my many similarly-afflicted friends. It helps to talk about it, especially in a public forum, not just me, but everyone else who deals with it, normalizing it, and as one friend put it, “naming it”.

In any case, that’s been what’s occupying me. It may have actually helped a bit, as I went into a couple of meetings at the deepest part of this particular cycle, with my filter basically off, and was surprisingly effective at getting things addressed; sometimes it helps to attack those things when they are assigned their proper insignificance. I’m trying to maintain the same sense of detachment in regard to the resident office asshole’s late-night temper tantrum we all came in to find this morning.

Given what I’ve described above, there wasn’t a hell of a lot else that felt like it mattered this week. I blundered through ‘Riffs practice, did some reading, and finished Stranger Things, which was really, really good. Highly recommended, even the “bottle” episode with Eleven off by herself – great use of music in that one.

Tunes…as I write this, it’s a really long playlist, with several songs clocking in at over eight minutes:

1. “Down Under” – Men at Work
2. “A Fine Day To Die” – Bathory
3. “Son of Mr. Green Genes” – Frank Zappa
4. “Cold Light” – Operators
5. “I Didn’t Like You Anyway” – The Donnas
6. “Cygnus X-1 Book II Hemispheres” – Rush
7. “The Logical Song” – Supertramp
8. “Battle Metal” – Turisas
9. “Girls Just Want to Have Fun” – Cyndi Lauper
10. “Shine on You Crazy Diamond (live) – David Gilmour
11. “Be Your Own Pet” – Becky