friday random elevenish: “cold calls” edition

29
Oct

My job, for better or worse, involves a lot of virtual meetings, either by phone or through collaboration apps on the computer. This isn’t a new pandemic phenomenon; my co-workers are spread all over the country, so there was never a lot of face time (though the ‘rona forced an improvement in the tools we have for that sort of thing -silver lining?). In my newish “official” role in the program office setting up policies and procedures and trying to make things maybe a little better, there can be lot more of that sort of thing.

Yesterday, for example, I spent several hours cold-calling program managers verifying FY budget needs and periods of performance. It was just as exciting as it sounds, but it might actually make the official budget (yes, we’re a month into the fiscal year and the budget is still in “draft” status) reflect somethin a little more resembling of reality.

But yeah; all afternoon on the phone (after a bunch of online meetings) kinda wrecked me. Friday *looks* mostly quiet, but who the hell knows.

Nothing in particular on the weekend radar apart from the usual shopping and running the non-licensed about. The weather looks crap, to be honest, so I’ll be probably be off the trail. I’ve got a book I’m reading, and there’s probably something cool on streaming somewhere.

Still better than cold-calling folks; I’ll take it.

So, tunes this week. Lots of “The Pluralized Nouns” action, along with some non-traditional spelling (no “-ies” for you). Less 80s glam than I’d expect, given my listening activity this week; that’ll probably feed the future, though.

Stay off the phone, folks:

  1. “The Friends of Mr. Cairo” – Jon & Vangelis
  2. “Midnight Rendezvous” – The Babys
  3. “Got You (Where I Want You)” – The Flys
  4. “Teenland” – The Northern Pikes
  5. “Couldn’t Stand The Weather” – Stevie Ray Vaughan
  6. “Nearly Lost You” – Screaming Trees
  7. “Aeiou Sometimes Y” – Ebn-Ozn
  8. “Sweet Jane” – The Velvet Underground
  9. “There She Goes” – The Boo Radleys
  10. “For Yasgur’s Farm” – Mountain
  11. “The Difference” – The Wallflowers
  12. “Cold Sweat” – Church of the Cosmic Skull
  13. “You’re My Favorite Waste of Time” – Marshall Crenshaw & The Handsome, Ruthless and Stupid Band

down the musical rabbit hole

28
Oct

Yesterday afternoon was an absolutely gorgeous early-fall afternoon, so I took advantage of the warm, sunny weather and did a long, refreshing 26 mile bike ride on the VCT, as is my habit. About seven miles into the ride, as my mind wandered, I had the melody of this particular tune pop into my mental soundtrack:

Random songs appearing without reason in my head is far from uncommon, though this one seemed odd, as I honestly hadn’t thought about it, or likely heard it at all, since shortly after it was released in ’89. It’s from a record I’ve never owned a copy of, it’s a song the band didn’t play live all pretty much at all, and of course, coming from the end of the post-makeup era, the record (apart from the big power-ballad single “Forever”) wasn’t a particularly huge hit overall.

But, it apparently lodged itself in a few spare brain cells, remaining hidden for 32-odd years until I was halfway through chugging up a steep hill in Charles City County…

Once I got back to my car after the ride, it was still fresh enough for me to pull the tune up on Spotify and give it a listen; and it wasn’t bad at all; in fact, I quite enjoyed it.

Part of the reason “Hide Your Heart” might have maintained some staying power is the fact that it was released five times, in five different versions, over the course of 1988-89, including a version released by former Kiss guitarist Ace Frehley four days before Kiss’ version.

It’s weird where my mind goes sometimes…however, afer listening to the song itself, I used it to seed a playlist algorithm, and came up with one hell of a mix that I’ve seriously been enjoying, and if you’re of a mind, I’ll share it with you here, if you’re up for some of the best of hair/glam/pop metal you’re likely to find anywhere.

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eighteen month wall

26
Oct

I’m definitely in a rut. Struggling to keep the momentum going. Another six-month wall.

Work. Bike. Dinner. Sleep. Repeat.

I wish I could get excited about, well, anything. I read the headlines and wallow further; my tiny bit of optimism that the current chaos is going to be followed by progress (as is the pattern of history) is in danger of being quashed.

Spending a whole morning arguing with lawyers and budget folks about requirement funding in the age of continuing resolutions’ll do that to you.

I still try to hope, but, y’know? It’s hard. So is listening to my own advice, though I’m going to try. A friend told me this one helped them work through some things; maybe it’ll work for me?



a middle aged man feeling conflicted by the modern world

25
Oct

I have a love/hate relationship with connective technology.

My phone, the internet, social media…all that stuff is, to a great extent, absolutely necessary to my job, my musical side projects, and my consumption of news. I enjoy keeping up with distant friends, streaming music and movies for enterainment, having access to infinite products and services should I need them,and, of course looking at the occasional picture of a cute cat.

All that said, I really hate it most of the time.

The constant flow of unreliable information, the always-connected nature of the thing, the performative framing of how we present ourselves out there; the fact that whenever I need to talk to someone, they’re invariably staring at their phone looking at the latest YouSnapTokGramFace thing and it’s a challenge to compete with that for their attention; it really, as they say, grinds my gears, and I hate that something so frustrating is, from certain perspectives, necessary.

In fact, sometimes it’s damned useful. When I have a gig or a new musical release I’m trying to promote, social media, in particular, Facebook, is the most effective means of getting the word out there. It’s where the audience is.

It’s also pretty much unrepentantly evil. It started out as a means for pre-incel college bros to rate how f*ckable their female classmates were. Now, as a monopolistic behemoth encompassing billions of data points users, it optimizes its algorithms for engagement an clicks, and what gets the most clicks and eyeballs is negative, agressive, and hostile content. And the company (as well as all the others) encourages this, because it increases stock prices and produces revenue, since the actual business social media companies are in is not “encouraging connection between people,” it’s selling relevant ad space (based on ridiculously detailed demographic data on everyone, including people who don’t even have an account on the service) to advertisers looking to push their products on receptive audiences.

If you’re not paying for the product, it’s likely that in reality, you are the product.

It’s really that negativity, that provocative content that often has very little to do with facts or reality driving clicks, that gets me. The semi-anonymity (at least amongst the products) encourages negativity and outsized reactions, in concert with the performativity and quick-hit reward one gets from the attention they receive by going some level of “viral.” The fact that a relatively small group of people have managed to make a living as an “influencer” only intensifies the performance, as it teases the possibility of financial gains from being an internet asshole.

And the companies, like nearly all elements of a late-stage capitalist system, apart from some basic lip service about “community” and “responsibility,” encourage the negativity in order to deliver short-term gains to shareholders, without regard for any sort of social responsibility. It’s a never-ending spiral into the kinds of corporate dystopia certain artists envisioned back in the 80s when all this shit started, what with all the “Greed is Good” and “Trickle-down” zeitgeist that, nearly 50 years later, has thoroughly convinced a significant minority of Americans to work against their own self-interests and deny the basic reality put before them.

That last paragraph went a little off-track, because the picture is bigger; it’s not only the negative influences of social media and technology that’s got us into this mess, but it’s certainly contributing to the issues by amplifying them.

For my part, knowing that I can really only affect change to a limited extent at the societal scale, look inward to myself. While my livelihood and my hobbies depend to a great extent on the technology backbone we call “the internet,” I make what efforts I can to unplug from the constant social media barrage where I can. Actions as simple as putting my phone in another room when I go to sleep at night; reading books rather than doomscrolling (and although I use an e-reader/tablet for many books these days, I purposely keep the device social-media free); going outside and spending time in nature, and not leaving the background noise on all the time. It works for me; the constant data feed stresses me out (as data shows it does to everyone), and I’m spending more and more time putting some distance between us; trying to take advantage of the benefits of 21st century technology and minimize the drawbacks.

It’s hard, but it feels worth it.

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In terms of meta-commentary on this whole topic, I’m aware of both the irony of bitching about the internet on the internet (and in fact pay to have this little piece of it to myself, but at least I avoid being the product), and that a lot of this sounds, as certain people have told me, like “old man yelling at cloud,” but I believe its a valid concern. Sure, the generations that have come after me grew up with this stuff, and it’s an inseperable part of their life in a way it isn’t for me, even if I stepped into the internet pond *very* early, before the WWW existed.

From this perspective, though, I’ve got a somewhat unique viewpoint; I see the benefits of the technology; occasionally get excited about it, but at the same time, feel frustration with it as it displaces other things, because I saw what things looked like before, and, to some extent, mourn that time that no longer exists while recognizing the inevitability of change.

Maybe I am just yelling at clouds. Oh well. I’ve got this onion right here to tie on my belt as well.

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This bit of writing was, at least in part, inspired by the first episode of Offline, that I stumbled on entirely by accident while listening to stuff in the car yesterday. It was interesting, though I kind of wished it leaned into the irony of talking about internet negativity through the vehicle of the internet, but glass houses, stones, etc.

friday random elevenish: “overtaxing the entire cranial region” edition

22
Oct

Seems I’ve been pushing myself hard this week, even as I intended certain elements to be “low impact,” in the sense that I gave my muscles a bit of a break by leaving the bike in storage and instead spending some time hiking the local trails after work as my chosen fitness-slash-head-clearing activity.

Being able to take in more of the scenery (like that view of the river from one of my favorite parks above) while moving around three-and-a-half miles per hour rather than 13-15 is nice, of course, though with the weather slowly plodding into a more atumnal mood, the various molds, pollens, and particulates of the season are definitely making their presence known, and it’s playing havoc on my sinuses.

That, along with a heavy work week developing job processes for the organization, wrestling with budgetary issues in an unusually plodding bureaucracy in the age of continuing resolutions, attempting to wrangle complicated systems answers out of unresponsive technical SMEs, and working and re-working piles and piles of paperwork while the threat of stress-related migraines looms on the horizon for these and other reasons I won’t explore here, my head, and all it’s subsystems, has not been a happy place.

That said, I’ve gotten a hell of a lot done in spite of it all, which I suppose is something I can be proud of. I’ve also had some forward movement on an atypical creative project for me that I’ll go into later; I’m just waiting for some more concrete scheduling information. Plus, as they say, I’ve been getting up every day, managed my required domestic tasks, and haven’t felt the need to murder anyone; so that’s good.

I continue to watch the world do dumb, irresponsible things and impede progress, but here in the timeframe of late 2021, that’s frustratingly the standard order of things.

I’m hoping to catch Dune this weekend with some friends (on the small screen via HBO Max), which hasn’t been derailed so far, but otherwise, I’m hoping for a little less mental heavy lifting and responsibility.

We shall see.

As for tunes, some interesting fringe 70s and 80s alternative stuff (including my favorite band of the era closing things out), which, y’know…cool. Also, #9 is a song I really dig from a band I haven’t explored nearly enough; I might have to change that.

  1. “Corduroy” – Pearl Jam
  2. “Surfing with the Alien” – Joe Satriani
  3. “I Think of Demons” – Roky Erickson
  4. “In The Street” – Big Star
  5. “Stick Around” – Julian Lennon
  6. “Cars” – Gary Numan
  7. “My City Was Gone” – Pretenders
  8. “Elenore” – Flo & Eddie
  9. “She Sells Sanctuary” – The Cult
  10. “Go Down Gamblin'” – Blood, Sweat & Tears
  11. “Detroit ’67” – Sam Roberts Band
  12. “Lips Like Sugar” – Echo & The Bunnymen
  13. “Love and Anger” – Kate Bush
  14. “Obscurity Knocks” – Trashcan Sinatras
  15. “Within Your Reach” – The Replacements

friday random elevenish – “failed state” edition

15
Oct

A week. The past seven days have certainly been one.

Personally, I’ve been busy with work and bike; tons of meetings, extra work, flow charts, and spreadsheets for the former, more than a hundred (occasionally wet) saddle miles for the latter. One helping me shake the stresses of the other.

Not much to speak of, except to briefly address the header image: Between one worker bee’s oddly specific questions about the penalties for not adhering to the mandate in an all-hands meeting, reading this disjointed stream of consciousness “explanation” from one of the supposedly “vaccine hesitant”, as well as just looking around in my local community, I’m not particularly confident in our fitness as a nation and/or species.

But there are tunes…garage rock interspersed with some new wave. Sure:

  1. “Stars” – Hum
  2. “So Long Baby Goodbye” – The Blasters
  3. “Hush” – Deep Purple
  4. “Tell Me When It’s Over” – The Dream Syndicate
  5. “Space Age Love Song” – A Flock of Seagulls
  6. “Only After Dark” – Mick Ronson
  7. “The Solar Sex Panel” – Little Village
  8. “Jump Into The Fire” – Harry Nilsson
  9. “Bloc Bloc Bloc” – Orchestral Manoeuvres In The Dark
  10. “Slipping (Into Something)” – The Feelies
  11. “The Emperor’s New Clothes” – Sinéad O’Connor
  12. “Range Rover Bitch” – Taylor Hawkins
  13. “Love Is Alright Tonite” – Rick Springfield
  14. “Valerie Loves Me” – Material Issue

friday random elevenish: “exhausting drama” edition

08
Oct

In addition to all kinds of excessive drama I’m not really getting into except to say that it’s very tiring, the regular stuff I tend to deal with has been particularly mentally exhausting. I’ve got a ton of work projects in various states of done; waiting for input from others or for continuing resolutions to sort themselves out (check the political headlines; that’ll give you an idea about certain aspects of my job are going – in short, if Senators are putting on dominance displays, it isn’t a good week), or dealing with various other pieces of minutia that simply won’t line up.

I’ve been braining way too hard this week, and haven’t really found a good outlet for turning it off.

At least I’m staring down the barrel of a long weekend, and honestly not much at all planned for it. I think I’m going to keep it that way.

Talking tunes, the Spotify algorithms are all over the place, spanning half a decade across genres and running the gamut from top ten hits to obscure deep cuts. Not really a bad mirror of my background brain cycles. Sure:

  1. “Dancing With Myself” – Billy Idol
  2. “Shake Some Action” – Flaming Grooves
  3. “Touch Me” – The Doors
  4. “I’d Love to Change The World” – Ten Years After
  5. “Plowed” – Sponge
  6. “Tusk” – Fleetwood Mac
  7. “Dream All Day” – The Posies
  8. “I Could Never Take the Place of Your Man” – Prince
  9. “The One Thing” – INXS
  10. “Mission of Mercy” – The Motels
  11. “Evangeline” – Matthew Sweet
  12. “She Got Me (When She Got Her Dress On)” – Masters of Reality
  13. “The New World” – X
  14. “Vanishing Girl” – The Dukes of the Stratosphear

momentarily satisfied

04
Oct

Gig played. Wrocked the heck out of Arlington. It was a damned good show, if I do say so myself. Nice dinner afterwards just chilling with my lovely spouse and our friends as well. The whole thing was so pleasant, I’m willing to mostly forget the absolutely crap traffic up and back.

On Sunday, I got the chores mostly done (shopping, laundry, etc), knocked out a nice 22 miles on the bike (averaging over 14mph!), and closed out the evening with a very satisfying virtual D&D session with some good friends.

Overall? I’ll take it.

No idea what the week ahead holds; but I’m mostly heading into it from a good place, which, I must say, is kind of refreshing.

friday random elevenish: “legislative wizardry” edition

01
Oct

Up until around 8pm last night, I didn’t know whether I’d be working today or not. That’s really not a nice feeling.

Congress did, however, manage to kick the can down the road at least a week or two, so I continue to sit conference calls, review test data, and work out how to make the new subscription-based chart app work so I can draw up some process flows.

It is just as exciting as it sounds, though if they can’t get their sh!t together two hours up I-95, we’ll be doing the same thing, or worse, in eight weeks, or even sooner if they don’t sort the debt ceiling business out.

The rest of the past week mostly involved allergies, twenty-four hours of migraines, and a few really nice bike rides. Y’know, the usual.

The big deal for the weekend is the band gig in NoVA tomorrow; couple of sets outside a library like back in the heady days of the mid-aughts at the peak of the wrock boom. I’m looking forward to it, even if I haven’t had the chance to really shake the dust off of my repertoire yet, though I expect that I’ll remedy that tonight. It’ll be nice to play with my friends for a while.

Otherwise, I’ll try to find some time to get the shopping and laundry done. The part-time rock star life is just so damned glamorous.

Tunes this week are trending toward obscure early 90s alternative, which, y’know, fine. It’s the kind of 120 Minutes-style stuff that geeky girl we all had an unrequited crush on back in high school listened to while we were stuck in the hair metal ghetto. Doesn’t explain that interlude of 70s prog-influenced pop there toward the end, but life, as they say, is a brilliant bouquet of endless variety.

Okay, maybe they don’t say that. Whatever.

  1. “Dickie Betts” – Dean Ween Group
  2. “Lack of Water” – The Why Store
  3. “Feed the Tree” – Belly
  4. “Just Like Heaven” – Dinosaur Jr.
  5. “Must of Got Lost” – J. Geils Band
  6. “96 Tears” – Garland Jeffreys
  7. “Complicated” – Poi Dog Pondering
  8. “Fly at Night (In the Morning We Land)” – Chilliwack
  9. “Fire on High” – Electric Light Orchestra
  10. “My Baby Blue” – John Hiatt & The Goners
  11. “I’m A Believer” – GIANT
  12. “One Big Love” – Patty Griffin

friday random elevenish: “severely overbooked” edition

24
Sep

So, didn’t love this week at all, apart from a couple of very brief bursts of seratonin.

For the most part, thanks to allergies, that muscle pull from last week, garbage weather, long work days, and unexpected adventures in busted ignition switches, tow trucks, and navigating warranty conditions, I spent a lot of the week miserable and overwhelmed. It sucked.

Chained to the desk, stuck on the phone, and lingering pains. Yay.

As for that last bit, my lovely spouse and the youngest ended up stuck in the city with a car that wouldn’t start after an appointment thanks to a faulty ignition switch on Tuesday afternoon. I kind of expected this eventually, as there’s a lot of chatter on the internets about the issue on this particular model. So, after navigating a bunch of phone menus with the warranty company (we’ve only had this car a couple of months and it’s covered for a while yet) to arrange a tow and locate an approved repair facility, I logged off early and headed into the city to retrieve folks and deal with the various customer service issues (those, at least, in person, were exceptionally pleasant).

Got the news Wednesday that my suspicions were correct that it was indeed the switch, but my warranty from the seller wouldn’t cover it, because the manufacturer had extended the warranty on that particular component. So, to get the thing sorted, I needed to get the car to the dealership (luckily, only two miles away from the independent shop); but schedules (especially owing to the fact that we were down a car) prevented my being able to arrange another tow and take care of shop paperwork until Thursday, which I did between work calls (and still ended up having to do one from the road). Again, the dealership was pleasant and very helpful, though we’re going to be without a car until at least the middle of next week.

Yay again.

So, yeah, that’s life right now; I’m sore, frustrated, and definitely exceeding my whelm limit. And this isn’t even taking into account the constant headlines about rising COVID rates and yet another looming government shutdown* pissing contest.

Oh, those nice things? My chiropractor appointment on Wednesday afternoon was a high point; I knew I was experiencing tension, though the feeling of my spine cracking like a zipper felt amazing and provided at least a few hours of relief. As was date night Sunday evening when the lovely spouse and I went to the drive-in movie theater (yes, they still exist) and caught a screening of Shang-Chi and the Legend of the Ten Rings; thumbs-up to both the film and the company. Finally, I logged in this morning to find a co-worker offering up unsolicited praise of my efforts to management regarding a project that got reviewed this week. It’s nice to be recognized.

Nothing really, for the weekend. I had to cancel some plans (though honestly, I don’t know if I was up to that level of social interaction anyway), as we’re a car down and offspring need to get to work. I’m hoping I’ll get some biking in (not much this week – see weather and muscle pain), maybe combined with errands that need done, and hopefully, some down time where nobody really needs anything from me for a while.

Closing out with tunes..lots of uptempo roots rock and americana, which is, y’know, fine with me. It’s one of my go-to comfort genres. #2 is a bit of a classic, I’ve really started digging the stuff that artist #9 puts out, and #10, as the kids say, slaps:

  1. “Burning Photographs” – Ryan Adams
  2. “Hard To Handle” – The Black Crowes
  3. “Keep On Knocking” – Death
  4. “Gone Ridin'” – Chris Isaak
  5. “Laid” – James
  6. “Cowboy Song” – Thin Lizzy
  7. “Unpublished Critics” – Australian Crawl
  8. “The Perfect Crime #2” – The Decembrists
  9. “Cumberland Gap” – Jason Isbell and the 400 Unit
  10. “Positively Lost Me” – The Rave-Ups
  11. “In A Daydream” – Freddy Jones Band
  12. “Always A Friend” – Alejandro Escovedo
  13. “Tumbling Dice” – Linda Rondstadt

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*- I really wish didn’t get so much mileage out of this song….

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