this image is what I need, not how I’m feeling

For the first week back to the grind after a holiday break that wasn’t particularly awesome, thanks to all kinds of external factors, it was, at best, not ideal, and otherwise, kind of a shit show.

Work, frankly, sucked, mostly because a few external entities made some bizarre, poorly-researched decisions and directives while most people were off celebrating the new year that have us all scrambling to either head off or (more likely) adjust to without any particular warning. That, and the fact that I worked my ass off to get things submitted that needed to be submitted ahead of deadlines before the holidays just ended up making more work for me because processes are so broken that nobody seems to have any clue what to do with something that doesn’t come in at the 11th hour…

Ugh.

We’ve got some good things in the pipeline, I think (that meeting was the high point of the week), though we’ll see whether we’re actually able to implement them in such a dysfunctional environment.

So, yeah.

I did get paid, and as result of that, paid off a big bill, which I guess is something. Likewise, my boss’s submitted evaluation of my work year said some really nice things about my being able to rescue productivity from the usual morass of wasted time, though I have yet to see how that’s going to affect my salary for the new year, as we haven’t managed to find time to have that meeting, assuming TPTB have actually released the results yet.

Ugh, once again.

For this weekend, we’ve got KT’s memorial service, which, while certainly sad, should provide a bit of peace, at least for me. I miss my friend terribly, and always will, celebrating her life is something well worth doing.

Otherwise? Honestly I haven’t really considered much otherwise; there’s another day there; I’ll probably just do laundry and hope it keeps the snow off.

Here’s a playlist. Looks an awful lot like an average hour at wnrn, which, y’know, ain’t so bad:

1. “Stay in the Car” – Bachelor, Jay Som, Palehound
2. “Heading West” – Neil Young & Crazy Horse
3. “Athena” – Tristen
4. “Keep It Dark” – Genesis
5. “The Hardest Cut” – Spoon
6. “Screenwriters Blues” – Soul Coughing
7. “Laminated Cat” – Loose Fur
8. “Year of the Spider” – Shannon & The Clams
9. “Brando” – Lucy Dacus
10. “Ivory Tower – Outake” – CSN&Y
11. “Hard on Everyone” – Kathleen Edwards
12. “I’m Writing a Novel”- Father John Misty
13. “Yin and Yang (The Flowerpot Man)” – Love and Rockets
14. “Cloud Nein” – Man Man
15. “San Diego Zoo” – The 6ths
16. “Nothing Else Matters”- Phoebe Bridgers