Yep, Amy and Emily singing Joni captures holiday depression pretty damned well.

Gonna be totally honest, I’m not at all feeling the holiday season this year. We’re damned near into the third year of this pandemic, mostly because selfish assholes gonna asshole, I lost a dear, dear friend a week ago whose passing I’m still coming to terms with, on top of the usual seasonal depression that always hits this time of year, what with the mourning of things long past, including a bunch of things that never really existed in the first place, in spite of what societal norms this time of year tell me.

Plus, I live with someone working retail and there’s a nasty covid-negative respiratory thing getting passed around.

Given all that, apart from sharing a few gifts over the course of the last week, we’re pretty much opting out of the whole thing this year. With work being busy right up to the end, and generally feeling the way we all are, we didn’t even put up a tree. For Saturday, we’re probably going to sit around, eat cheese, drink beer, and watch a couple of movies. That’s enough, and honestly probably the most my spoon reserve can manage.

But, as it’s the end of the week, I have this habit of posting some music that came out of the computer. This week, it’s not exactly random; KT’s husband Kevin asked me to help him with the music for the memorial service we’ll do after the holidays, so I went through all the playlists she made and songs she liked on the streaming services to come up with a list to start paring down. Today, I’m going to just post a bit of that list; a bunch of songs that she liked, that, for one reason or another, kinda feel like her. So here it is:

1. Rivers and Roads – The Head and the Heart
2. Kacey Musgraves – Follow Your Arrow
3. Time and Time Again – Counting Crows
4. Yours – Ella Henderson
5. The Best You Had – Nina Nesbitt
6. Sit Still, Look Pretty – Daya
7. Best Day of My Life – American Authors
8. Your Side of the Bed – Loote
9. Exes & Ohs – Elle King
10. Bury Me Face Down – grandson
11. Colorblind – Counting Crows
12. Love it If We Made It – The 1975
13. Shout Out to My Ex – Little Mix
14. I See Fire – Ed Sheeran
15. Goodbye To You – Michelle Branch
16. The Ballad of Miss Lily – David Ford

As it’s the day, I wish all of you a happy holiday, whichever traditions you celebrate, or don’t – may whatever you do bring you a little peace.